DiViNE EViL DiViNE EViL: July 2007


Sunday, July 29, 2007

That was too much

Yeah I was stressed...but somehow I ended up with a swollen finger.

Not pleasant at all, since that finger is nearly my most important one...the index finger of the right hand. Can't hold chopsticks well, and I can't write at all. However, I can still type because of the little energy needed to press a button...

So yeah I stare at my homework before attempting write using my third finger as support but I can't. And I have to postpone/skip another piano lesson...and if it recovers by tomorrow so that I have no proof that it is swollen then SOMEbody is cursing me...

Hopefully it is not that bad. Recover after tomorrow will do...and now, there is a night study plan where I can study until I sleep. Helpful, and I hope I can cope with that.

As for now, I have no further comments.
JLam posted this at 19:02 | link | 0 comments |

Thursday, July 26, 2007

Rest in Peace

And after a whole lot of backpedalling, I have fallen.

Yes, not enough sleep again. I didn't go to school today, but I felt it was some preparation for a good rest. In these three weeks, chapters and chapters of work and information have been piling onto everybody's brains. Even the geniuses of the class are failing to cope in one or more subjects. And to make it worse, the school takes away any rest day after school or on Saturdays available by organising events, activities and whatever not that you would have wish come earlier in the year when it could have.

Examples? Here you go: College day last Saturday, when files were due and tests were looming ahead, not to mention unfinished assignmets and tutorials. Racial Harmony day Celebration-held after school on a CCA day yesterday. And CCA was still on after that. Tomorrow, I will still be attending my CCA until about six in the evening, whereby I will need to make a trip to my ex-school for...more CCA until nearly ten in the evening. That will be the same next Friday too, and the day after that will be the College Open House. Don't they stop coming?

Add the clashing of a Chemistry test to my Alumni Band Performance in August, and there you have a postponement of postponements. I will still need to catch up on Functions of Mathematics (like I have ever did two years ago) for a test I was supposed to take today. And still I haven't understood a new Chapter of Physics, caught up on Geography topics I was supposed to know but don't because I didn't take that subject for Ordinary Levels Examinations, or revise what my Chemistry teacher has taught in extra lessons after Mondays and Fridays (before CCA) that were not even taught in lectures yet. AND there is a Geography remedial next Monday. In case you're wondering, I'm not exaggerating. Actually, in retrospect, I think everybody who is attending College in Singapore is actually experiencing this. Makes you think how sad it is.

Classmates are sleeping at 2130 hours on weekdays to get enough sleep. And that's for sacrificing their work done. For sleeping at 0230 hours this morning, I had a shrewd feeling I wasn't going to make it. For the nine hours of sleep I have regained, I am finally feeling better after getting an average of four hours of sleep every night. A miracle if I had time to update this page. But I have.

Yes so I should stop whining and focus all attention to myself. But as I have mentioned, this probably applies to many College students around...only that they can cope because they understand their homework better. As I have still been wondering...I am not so much as a Mathematical person. As much as doing mathematics has been nearly a torture for me, I would have found it fun if it was simple to absorb, like some others have known. How would this happen to us? Why are we graded only by subjectal (if that's a word) means? Yes that's necessary at secondary level but it has never struck me now that I would want to be a Mathematics Professor. Nor a Physics Expert. Nor a Professional Chemist. And, now, nor a animation director. So what am I? Yes the polytechnic is there. What of Music does it give? What balances both Arts and Science to an equal extent?

I ask for too much, I might have known. But if you know there's something wrong if you're trying to make some sense out of something that doesn't, and doesn't appeal to you at all. And things that will actually hurt your health by piling on top of your head. Honestly, if I were not tested in those subjects, I would have rather gladly attend all those CCAs, all those College Days. Alas, they are not graded. Nobody gives a damn how much you have helped. It is all in your certificate.

You are nothing but your results. Results of something you are not proud of. If that does not apply to you, don't worry. If it does, there's someone out there that's like you.
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Thursday, July 12, 2007

Third Year Running.

The previous post was so strong, that when I opened it, I had an Internet Explorer error! Anyway, It has been two years since I have begun, and we shall track the developments...
Post Number: 92

If you do realise, there is nothing much I can add or change. It will make the declaration too long. For that, I shall include, in future, other sources of EViL.

Original posted on: Sunday, July 10, 2005
Version 2: Thursday, July 20, 2006
Version 3: Thursday, July 12, 2007

Good Evening.

I am JLam, also known as Nevilinity, Finoq, Navalev, Holeyhell...the list goes on. You will never know what is behind the mask of names.

I live in a world full of EViL. People who do not understand the virtue of patience, humility, creativity, unselfishness, optimism, flexibility and the ability to tolerate anger. These are common weaknesses of what we call intelligent beings who dominate the Earth. If only people would realize the key to all kindness is forgiveness. Nobody can understand why people act like people, how stubborn characteristics change their acts, other's decisions, and the future, why people do not realize the joy of life. Life is to be enjoyed, because you will never know what lies after. Nobody knows if your knowledge carries over to your afterlife because it won't affect it. Nobody can prove there's a God, Heaven or Hell. Nobody can control the darkness of people, the anticipation of the next public enemy to emerge. Nobody can predict how the fairness of judgement and luck can fall upon people and change their character, lives, and future for others, for better or worse.

Such is the power of DiViNE EViL.

Oh yeah and tomorrow is Friday the 13th. Not that I think it's special in any way, but I would like to place it under 'Random', if I didn't forget what number of Randomness the counter is at now.
JLam posted this at 23:11 | link | 0 comments |

Monday, July 09, 2007

For all you think that will happen, planning is not the point.

Think ahead.
But don't plan.
The Power of DiViNE EViL
Do things more than you usually can.
Harm not a Human
For who you hate,
Better change it now
Before it's too late.
In good ways you try,
Is better than none
Mostly they are said
Easier than done.
Don't stick to the law
But abide by its rules.
They're possible to be correct
But only one's true.
A choice is made
Conscience inept
Not when you're emotional
When you'll regret.
In Retrospect
Will you learn more
Only realise
When you don't score.
Think Ahead.
What will happen in the past.
Search for information
Stupid people don't ask.
JLam posted this at 22:47 | link | 0 comments |