Sunday, July 12, 2009
Celebration of EViL.
Add-on: After reviewing my previous version, I have seen that it's a version I'm nearly satisfied with. Editions with it in future should be minute.
Original posted on: Sunday, July 10, 2005
Version 2: Thursday, July 20, 2006
Version 3: Thursday, July 12, 2007
Version 4: Saturday, July 12, 2008
Version 5: Sunday, July 12, 2009
I am JLam, also known as Nevilinity, Aceildus, Holeyhell, GrowTrees...the list goes on. It is the darkness of anonymity concealing the truth behind...which exposes the weakeness in what you are up against.
I live in a world full of EViL. People who do not understand the virtue of patience, humility, creativity, unselfishness, optimism, flexibility and the ability to tolerate anger. The weaknesses of what we call intelligent beings who dominate the Earth, who in fact mostly do not acknowledge the benefits of kindness that is forgiveness. The weakness of acting based on a surge of emotions. Nobody can understand why people act by instinct, how stubborn characteristics change their acts, other's decisions, and the future, why people do not realize the joy of life. Nobody knows if your knowledge carries over to your afterlife because it won't affect it. Nobody can control the darkness of people, the anticipation of the sudden happening of natural events. Nobody can predict how the fairness of judgement and luck can fall upon people and change their character, lives, and future for others, for better or worse.
Such is the power of DiViNE EViL.
And to merge with that power shall the one dominate.
Wednesday, July 08, 2009
However the arrival of the synthesizer was marred by some crappiness. First the screen was malfunctioning. At first, half of the screen on the synthesizer was slashed by numerous vertical lines. After a while the whole screen went blank. Then it happened that they sent the wrong cover for the keyboard, as it was too small. Not to mention I feel kind of ripped off by the keyboard stand, which cost a lot despite it being two large bars of steel.
Hopefully all this dedication results in an improvement in my vision to do anything, as now I'm still wandering about without a real aim when my national service ends. It's still a tough decision to make...and it seems that the things that worry me at work are now far far away...though I will come to face the reality again starting next week. It will be quite some time again before I revert back to the lifeless being; the embodiment of oblivion...
And if it doesn't work, my commitments are all for nothing.
And I will have disappointed even myself.