Sunday, August 28, 2005
POP=Passing Out Parade, which means I'm no more in the band, I'm Alumni.
Four Years of Band is over...I don't know what to say. AND I couldn't use the computer until today, which is now 13:09 in Singapore, and I ain't at school because there's combined science and Biology Practical Prelims today, and I am involved with neither of them.
My section is too 'good'. Too quiet, I think. Others got dog bones *ahem* for instance. BUT I think, that the speech is what I've done well for my whole secondary experience. I think the band has really improved my confidence. I wasn't sure if I could say anything in front of about 70 students and 3 teachers. BUT I did. AND I told them what I wanted to. I felt relieved about myself after that. I was just plain relieved. I also learnt much from the other sec 4s, which I never knew all these 4 years. I guess I ain't socializing enough. Well, I've learnt. You shall see. The power of DiViNE EViL.
I just heard my sis had 210+ for prelims(PSLE). At this rate she may end up similar to my PSLE Schore(232) or even more.(probable)
I need to work harder. My physics has improved, i feel, as I have studied some of my weaker areas, mainly the Waves section. Now that I have physics, E and A Maths are next. Yes, A. Maths. If nobody's going to teach properly, I'll learn myself. You shall see. The power of DiViNE EViL!
AND if I get into a JC, prefably with music, as I am doing best for my music now, I will become a new person. Improved. However, I only have one chance. I'll have to take it anyway. I have the no-grudge character, calming tensions, trying to hold back anger as much as possible, at the same time trying not to explode. The most I'd exploded is with OLS and me sis.
That's what I like about myself. If I'm not happy, have a good sleep, and I'll be well tomorrow. Forget about the past. Unfortunately, this affects a little bit of studies too. Everyday I sleep, I seem to forget a bit of my information. AND unfortunately, this seems to affect A.Maths the most.
My studies will improve. You shall see. The power of DiViNE EViL.
Let it not fail now
Friday, August 12, 2005
Today is a POD.(Piece of Shyt)
I think i suck.
But be happy, because I will not only be overcome by something I originally didn't aim for.
It's Chinese I'm talking about.
Today The results were out. I wasn't really that worried, as I sat in the hall and waited. I am so frustrated at myself. Now. But what can I do? All that's done is done.
E. Maths is a horrible thought. The Dark Times are up. A C5!? Danggit that'll earn me a place in nowhere in the world. Okay I'm exaggeraring...The first paper was OK, I graded it myself...but the second paper...54% is bad. Way bad. AND that's a simple paper, and ONLY 'Elementary' Mathematics. Means A. Maths...Don't think about it.
Thoughts of maths away, now to face Chinese, and this was non prelim. It's the real thing. I was hoping miracles would happen. But then, miracles never happened to me in studies anyway, except for English. So I expected my Chinese to get about C5, similar to my Mathematics.
There were only 3 failures. I was quite sure I wasn't one of them.
And I was right.
I didn't fare much better. A C6 Merit.
A C6 Merit.
In these three months, you won't see me much around. Anyways there's not many people to see this anyway. These three months, I'll spend them in my study. No miracles happen, so a 'reverse disaster' will. You shall see. The EViLness will overcome my soul, your soul, the writing materials, the examination papers( I hate the word SCRIPTS), the whole of Cambridge, then the whole of Europe, and then the planet Earth, the Sun, The Iurus Planet, the Planet of Zukeii. All will be conquered, and the one who emerges victorious from the Apocalypse will be the one who spared himself when he commanded it to happen. I shall be the only survivor. Prepare...to Proceed...and Receive.
Such is the power of the Dark Times.