Monday, August 06, 2012
No more specifics, and I'll leave it at that. Just two to three years of stagnance and my control of language seems to have vastly deteriorated. I often find myself searching for the word to use which I know exists but cannot put my finger to. My mind needs to slow down to form sentences before I can type them out in their entirety. Just two years.
Fortunately, I have finally managed to achieve a few things, which are really miniscule considering the time I had for them. I managed to pass my piano ATCL diploma, a staggering 7 years after I achieved my ABRSM Grade 8. I can only hope my renewed revival of interest for classical piano will maintain the drive required to proceed to higher levels.
I managed to obtain a driving licence too but that's relatively trivial and considering the amount of traffic in Singapore as well as Hong Kong I doubt I'll actually prefer driving than actually taking public transport in the future, considering that there will be a MRT station plopped right outside my house in 2015.
Forgetting all these, I shall now set my sights to the future yet again, after repeated disappointments in the past few(several now) years, and hope that I can make something more out of myself. No, not hope. To perform is what I strive, but time and time again they return as empty words echoed in my mind of procrastination and lack of determination. But perhaps I will enjoy the suffering which is to come. From here, I will probably throw this idea away again and let this blog rest. Only if I do manage to overcome my odds shall I come back and laugh away at my old self, otherwise it is only a pain to become the failure that I tried so hard not to be.
You have my word. I may never appear here, but I shall always be around. For one to fabricate originality, one must discard all the original traits of examples he has followed and keep only the essence.